I'm playing Pokemas again. So if you watched the pokemon presents lately maybe you remember Carmine got announced? or maybe not, this game has been so irrelevant in recent times.. I am a huge Kitakami siblings lover and I said "I'll take a break, but I'll come back for them." and here they are... so here I am, too. I got pretty lucky and only needed two multis for Carmine!! ^-^ Now we patiently wait for Kiki's arrival. They gave out a ton of gems for free lately so I should be able to pity him worst comes to worst.

      I dont even know where to start with Pokemon Masters EX. This game is so important to me. Ive been on this shit for five years now, made amazing friends from the community, and had so much fun AND SPENT WAY TOO MUCH MONEY but let's ignore that. It's probably the most important video game of my life. A pokemon gachaslop, lmao. Strange how life goes... Anyways, its a shorter blog for today. I just wanted to ramble and archive some of my profile photos I've made. I also thought of flexing all of my 5/5 maxxed pairs but the game's added so much more limit break shit since ive been gone they arent actually 100% maxed out anymore. -_- So nvm.

I got fancybox for my blog pages! click the pics for captions.

      im bored so im writing a blog. not bothering to capitalize and use proper grammar or anything. i feel lazy. so what have i been up to lately? honestly? not much of anything. worked on college classes and this website, mostly the animal crossing page. life is stressful and weird right now. thank god i finally finished my college classes. the problem with me is that im so used to bullshitting things that i actually got disturbingly close to failing them this time. i go to community college so of course its going to be easier than university, but still, it requires some effort.

      the high school i went to was uh... gross. and poor. in the middle of nowhere. its actually infamous in the area for being totally shit, and using all of their funding exclusively on their sports teams. and whatever, it is primarily my fault that im a lazy bitch lol, but that whole experience obviously didnt help at all. i literally had to put in zero effort to get good grades and a 3.7 GPA. and im not saying that in a "zomg im so smart" way its more like a "wtf is wrong with this school where i didnt even have to try to get amazing grades that id have to put a ton of effort in to get anywhere else?".. way. moving on, i did actually pass the classes, so its fine. but it was concerning... it makes me worry for my future. im genuinely so bad at putting in honest effort to things i dont care about. when i care i can actually go apeshitt, but otherwise im lazy and careless. i have the motivation of a fat housecat.

      in nicer news, my site is now officially up.. ~~~ and im happy. but also nervous. ive applied to a handful of fanlistings and a clique, and everytime im like "oh my god... this person is actually going to look at my website, and perceive me..!!!". eek. of course they probably wont look past the index page (i dont expect them to) but still. prior to this ive basically had no internet presence besides wordlessly dumping my fanart/oc art on social media. and ive struggled with social anxiety my whole life... so yeah, this is a bit tough for me. boldly displaying my heart on the internet!!

      i think that im mostly doing this for myself; learning to make websites and design them these past few months has been so healing and fun, but of course i also want other people to see it and be like "wow this is neat"! im thinking of whether or not i should keep my neocities profile up? the social aspect of this host is interesting but it also kinda reminds me of tw*tter which is ..eugh. we'll see i guess. if i dont have problems with annoying-ness i might as well just keep it public. i'd still prefer messages to be left on my guestbook than on my profile, but of course any comments are very much appreciated either way.

      i'd like to talk about my site some more here. so i made a lot of these graphics myself, like the background image on the status and "currently" box. i also drew the little bunny on the updates box, and the tiling background featuring cuddles from HTF! i used this website to help me make it. my favorite colors are green, pink and blue so i figured why not feature all of them at the same time? i hope it looks cohesive ;_; i tried a more monochrome look several times but i hated it..!! i even tried a dark purple/black theme but i hated how visually unstimulating it looked. just flat and meh. i wanted something to pop out at your eyes! im honestly really happy with this layout. especially all the little personal touches i put on it. (submas my beloved) im really happy with how the button came out too, is it just me or does it kinda have fluttershy vibes with the colorscheme and butterflies? lolol. i love pixel art so much, its so fun.

      holy crap why do i always end up rambling on here so much LOL. i swear the people who say "just ask somebody to talk about themselves and theyll talk forever" are right. i could totally talk about myself forever... i guess thats why i like blogging here. although i havent as much as i wanted to..!!! mostly due to chronic sleepy bitch and boring bitch syndrome!! i guess some other things i did was make gifts for my family. (two birthdays) two polymer sculpted creatures. i might take a picture and attach it later? ....also the family puppy turned a year old! AHAHA okay okay i need to stop writing now. thanks for reading.