happy (..kinda late) new year!

been a while since ive wrote here. tbh, i dont really like writing and i feel like im shit at it lol!! but i will admit it feels good to do it anyways, so... imma just ramble for a bit.

i feel confident about this new year. i think?? ok maybe im not totally confident, but i have a feeling my life will change for the better this year in a big way. im going to meet a lady who can help me with my 'issues' (being an autist lmao) soon, which ive never really had because prior to this my family was convinced i could just wing life... which that turned out to be untrue, who wouldve thought. well im grateful for this opportunity anyways. apparently this lady is pretty good at what she does and i hope she can help make positive changes in my life. im tired of being a loser, honestly. i know im still young and lots of zoomers live like hermits, but.. still..

what ive been up to lately... well, i spent all of december just hanging out with my family. they have pretty busy jobs so we dont get to do much together, but we just talked a lot and went out a lot. it was really nice and i feel more connected with them. my relative with the hoarding issue that i previously mentioned has been getting help, and i helped her organize, get rid of and sell a lot of things. which was honestly pretty fun? cleaning and organizing is actually really relaxing to me. im really proud of her and her progress. overall it felt really nice to hardly be on the PC.

im also getting a new drawing tablet.. except this time its a display tablet...!! and not just any display tablet, but a wacom cintiq! they actually came out with new models of cintiqs last year so i chose that one. i had an XP pen display several years ago and i hated it and ended up returning it in like, less than a week rofl. it was cheap and tiny and really crappy feeling. but in recent years wacom has decreased their prices exponentially and now you dont have to shell out atleast 1k for a decent display tablet. so whenever it gets here i want to write a review for it. you will be getting the REAL and TRUE marble take... um, whenever it arrives, which i have no idea when it will. it hasnt even shipped yet.

i accomplished a decent amount last year i guess. i mean i didnt die and i didnt fail my classes so its a win i guess!! i hope with my new tablet i can draw more this year,.. i look at my gallery page for 2025 and its like "yeah i drew a decent amount" but in my head it feels like i didnt?? sigh... as long as i continue to approach normalcy, independence and less self-isolation then im happy with whatever happens this year.

agghhh im getting tired, but.. it felt good to write again. i hope i dont lose motivation to work on the website this year. i just feel so slow lately. goodbye and happy new years, everybody.